IMG_20160124_095502It has been a long time since I’ve done an update on my weight loss battle. Primarily because I didn’t have anything to report. At least I didn’t feel like I had anything to report. I was sick of my own battle so maybe I assumed you were also. The struggle is just so exhausting. Both mentally and physically. I was just over it.  But there have been some changes so here’s what’s been going on.

In October of 2014 I decided to go see a weight loss doctor. I figured if I was on trial for murder I wouldn’t represent myself, I’d hire a lawyer. And if I needed my taxes done I wouldn’t do them myself I’d hire SJC Financial Solutions (ha! see what I did there?)  

Anyway. I went to see Dr. Adrienne Youdim who is a weight loss specialist. After an evaluation she helped with a nutrition plan, an activity plan and she prescribed Belviq. The Belviq helped with hunger but was really expensive. Over the next few months I lost about 10lbs but I realized even though I wasn’t hungry I was still eating like crap. I was paying a lot for the pills and lot for the doctor and I hadn’t changed my eating or exercise habits one bit. So I quit all of it. 

About 4 months after I quit my job I decided I was ready to give it another shot. I went back to Dr. Youdim and was horrified, but not surprised to learn I’d gained back all of the weight that I’d lost plus 2lbs. I decided that I didn’t want to go back on the Belviq. She recommended I try Topamax, which is actually a migraine medication that has an appetite suppressant side effect. And the best part, it is a generic medication so it cost about $1.50/mo!  Since that point I’ve never looked back. I’ve lost 46lbs since June 2015, down 50lbs from my highest weight overall.  

I’ve come a long way but I’m still about 30lbs away from my goal. Each day is still a struggle. I  still don’t want to work out. I still don’t want to eat kale. Salmon is boring as hell. The pills don’t change that fact. It is still up to me to get off my butt and do what I need to do to be healthy and lose the weight. I want to reiterate that medical intervention is in no way the solution to the problem, it is simply a tool to help you out a long the way. 

The other day my sister-in-law asked me why is this time different?  I had to really think about it because honestly, I didn’t know.  This is what I’ve come up with:

  1. The Time Is Right – I don’t think there’s anyway I would have been successful at this if I was still working my full-time job. Before I left IRS, I was working in an office over 50 miles from my house. I spent over 4 hours on the freeway some days. With the stress of my job and the commute my eating habits were out of control. Monday – Friday the majority of my meals were consumed in my car. No matter how many lunches and snacks and protein bars I packed fast food was the main staple of my diet.
  2. Vanity – Yes, a girl wants to look good. But on a more serious note. I’m now an entrepreneur. I’ve got a product and a business to sell. And no matter how much we don’t want to admit it, looks sell. I don’t want to be liability to my brand because I’m not an effective spokesperson.
  3. Appetite Suppressant – I felt like I was hungry all the time. My mother used to say that’s how she felt when she was pregnant with me so I guess I’ve been dealing with that issue for a while. One good (not so good) side effect of Topamax is that you lose the ability to taste the carbonation in drinks. So soda, beer, anything “sparkling” tastes flat and really very gross. This helped me kill my love of coca cola very quickly. It literally tastes like you are drinking the syrup. But damn I miss it!
  4. Travel – And of course it always comes back around to my love of travel! My cousin Melina and I have this constant debate with her sister Tammy about why we can’t fit 2 weeks worth of clothes in a carry-on. We keep trying to explain to her that our clothes are bigger than hers! I don’t ever think that I’ll get to that point, but I did want to be able to go on a trip where my wardrobe didn’t consist of 10 pairs of black pants and matching black cardigan sweaters. I also got really tired of my ass and thighs spilling over into the seat next to me on the plane. And getting really annoyed once I fastened my seat belt and realized that there wasn’t very much extra seat belt left to tighten. That probably goes back to #2.

I think I still have a long way to go. Not necessarily in terms of weight loss but in terms of being completely happy and confident with my body. I’m getting there little by little, slowly every day. I’m a work in progress. But I am finally at a point where I’m ready to say that I’m proud of the progress that I have made and I want to share that success with you. Thanks for going on this journey with me!